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mourning4you on 01.02.2010 at 01:17
I feel...: 
weird
r0ckin' out to: Alejandro--Lady Gaga
she won't look at you
2009 = a shitty end to a shitty year.
2010 = shitty beginning to what better be a good year....or else.
seriously, i want something to go RIGHT this year, i'm begging you! *sigh*
please, Lord, let my current endeavour end in my favor...i'm sick of the chase.
you know that i love you, boy
Posted by my_immortal01 on 12.31.2009 at 19:58
I feel...: energetic
r0ckin' out to: When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus
Dear 2009,
I am so happy that you have finally come to an end.
This may have been the worst year of my life.
Thank you for the tears, the drama, the heartache,
the stress, and the pain. You definitely made each day
a little bit of hell from the beginning to the end.
Family members passed away, friends broke my trust,
GREs kicked my ass, I broke up with my boyfriend,
I was made the bad guy by family and friends, and I
had my heart broken once again. With only very few
special people to help me out through each one of those.
This semester was my toughest, personally and
academically. I didn't think you could make me hate
you even more. But hey, I walked away with
a 3.86 GPA and I have grown professionally
on my way to becoming a psychologist thanks to
this semester.
But thanks to you, I have become stronger
and learned from my mistakes. I have learned
who my real friends are, and I have found
new friends to turn to :)
However, I am happy to be done with you.
Done with the bullshit you have put A LOT
of people through this year. I'm ready to
turn things around in 2010... and I hope to
God they do.
So eff you, 2009. I will never ever miss you.
:)
Posted by my_immortal01 on 12.30.2009 at 22:32
I feel...: 
happy
Sooooo excited for Florida in 6 days! :)
Posted by mourning4you on 12.30.2009 at 14:19
I feel...: 
confused
r0ckin' out to: So Happy I Could Die--Lady Gaga
he ate my heart <3
You know what I hate above anything else? Everyone keeps telling me that I have him...
Just from the little things I tell them, they seem to think he likes me. And you know why
I hate them telling me this? Because they're giving me hope...hope for something that
I know is not allowed to happen, that is not LIKELY to happen. I don't want to hope,
I don't want to believe until I know for sure that it will happen and that
I can be happy with him.
I'm so sick of looking...I don't want to look. I want this to be it. I want him to be the one.
And if he's not the one, I want to know so I can move past it. I set a deadline for myself that
if he doesn't acknowledge me out of the everyday context (for us anyway) by a certain date,
then I'm going to give up...or try to anyway.
But then my mom told me something that I don't know why, but I swear it hit me like the greatest revelation.
She said, "Perseverance."
And then proceeded to say how if I really want something to come of it or
if I think he's worth it, then I have to persevere. And she's right. I know it.
I can't give up, not if I think this could be it...regardless of the "rules."
I just need to figure out a way to make it obvious to him without making it
obvious to others and figure out a way not to have this fuck everything up
if he really doesn't like me in such a way.
Ugh this is giving me such a headache. :(
'cause when he's looking
she falls apart
Posted by my_immortal01 on 12.29.2009 at 19:30
I feel...: 
lazy
r0ckin' out to: Speechless - Lady Gaga :)
I'm off today. Very off. One of those days
where everything kinda hits you at once and
you're just like blahhhh and want to be left alone.
"Love the one you're with."
5 words I have never been able to grasp...
Cassie: Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before... try and keep that feeling, because if it goes, you'll never get it back
Chris: What happens then?
Cassie: You lay waste to the world... and everything in it.
^^ Thanks to Jenna for letting me borrow that :)
